What's the dealio...

RANT 'O THE DAY:

I've spent a lot of the last couple months pondering why it is SO HARD to find a decent guy out there. You know, one who doesn't point out that you've gained a love handle or two; or - heaven FORBID - one who actually tells you how much you mean to them.

It's so frustrating to see those who are happy (and I'm happy for them, don't get me wrong). However, it's like putting salt in a wound to see how perfect some can be. I might make a sour face to what the latest 'cute-sy' thing it is they're doing, but 7% of my reaction is actually out of jealousy (the remaining 93% is of bitter disgust). What exactly is it that I'm doing wrong that puts me in the situation where I just want to castrate some of my man-friends? Is chivalry really actually, truely, dead? Gosh, I really hope not.

All I want to do is find someone whom I can be friends with; a person who shares the same goals and values as I do. I really don't think that it should be too hard. But apparently we live in a society where you have to date at least 2 fuckwits before finding someone worthwhile. Here's hoping the third time's a charm, otherwise I might end up alone, dead, and eaten by a wild pack of dogs.

OH EMM GEE

Through reading a friend's blog today, I stubled upon the fact that I too actually have a blog! My first (and only) post was in 2008 - and funny enough, I actually mentioned in it that I always start a journal and never follow up on it. Oops!

I also thought that nobody would EVER read it - but funny enough, someone actually left a comment!! Thanks Ms. Caddywumpus!

My first post was written while in college. Now, over two years later as a university student my issues with studying have not changed. I really do have a problem with it - I just cannot get myself to sit down and read the crap included in the overpriced collection of paper that we refer to as 'textbooks'. *Sigh*

I supposed that if I actually plan on graduating that I should figure out this little 'issue' of mine...

Anyone have any suggestions for what helped with them to buckle down on the books?

Look what became of my procrastinating...

I'm supposed to be studying right now. But that's seems to be my life.

That's all I say to myself when I'm doing anything other than studying. This little voice appears in my mind, incessantly repeating obnoxious (but warranted) messages such as: "You should be studying", "You're going to regret this, because you should be studying", "You're falling behind in your studying", and "study. Study. STUDY".

However, if I had listened to that little voice, I wouldn't have stumbled across the prompt that stated, "Create a blog!". Alas! Here I am! Welcomed to the world of blogging with open...keyboards?? I don't know, I'm still trying to figure out what the heck I'm supposed to write on here.

I tried to keep journals/diaries when I was younger. But those attempts were always abandoned. That's what happens when you have siblings, especailly when your diary filled with your most treasured secrets contains a lock made of 3 cent metal (aka. easily pried open). Or the book can be lost - I've done that too. I guess that it's more difficult to lose your computer...

I then return to the question that keeps popping up in my mind - how detailed should/can my posts be? Of course there will be no scandalousness or 'I love yous', but how much is too much safety wise?

Should I be worried about giving out my name?

I've always been a 'safe' internet user, but we all know that there's the creepy little pervs who wreck it for everyone. There's always privitizing the blogs, but I really don't want to do that. Not many people I know have blogs, so what's the point of writing when nobody reads it?

I'm on the fence.

Does anyone have any suggestions?

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Rule #1: Save your blog intermittantly. Don't navigate away from pages or else you will lose your very first (awesome) publication.

(I guess I'm not so tech savvy after all.)